In the last couple of years I felt uncomfortable because I didn’t find my place professionally. I wanted to leave everything behind and start something new that is really close to me. But I was stuck. I wanted to work on it, but I didn’t have any tool that could help me. I knew what are my strengths, my skills, my personal qualities people admire but I couldn’t figure out how to use them to their potential.
There were a few aspects I tried to take into consideration:
- I want to make money with it.
- I want to love it and be passionate about it.
- I want to create something powerful that has a great impact on people.
- I want to be good at it by nature.
- I want to do something the world needs.
I was thinking about the above for years without any clear outcome.
I added some more question to help myself in the process:
- What am I paid for?
- What people think I am good at?
- Why people usually contact me?
- What did I learn?
- What do I know?
I had a few ideas: becoming a DJ, a fashion designer, the manager of a queer artistic community, editor, performer or teacher. Which one to choose?
I did my homework but I didn’t pay attention on one tiny detail. What connects all the professions that came in my mind? Creativity, leadership, transformational impact, and the essence of my personality which is the act of stepping out, meaning establishing my own authentic rules instead of following the standards.
At this point it started to rise up.
Soon I ran into the speech of a career coach on youtube, her name is Ashley Stahl. I didn’t actually like her style, I found her too forced and superficial, but her words resonated with my current thoughts. As I watched her the idea of becoming a coach slightly emerged in front of my eyes. It was a sudden thought and fortunately all of my standards I highlighted earlier matched in coaching. I felt relieved and alive.
The next step was asking for an appointment with my friend who is a professional coach.
I thought it will be an easy thing. I imagined myself telling him what are my skills, what are my qualities and his answer being that coaching is a perfect match for me, then I’d go home happy and relaxed. But instead he kept asking me what do I really love doing, which of my previous jobs was the closest to me emotionally, what would I love to do if I had all the circumstances given? I was confused. No one has ever asked me anything similar. I felt that my plan is not working at all, I was scared and disappointed.
Suddenly as we sit there in silence, I saw myself as a kick-ass university professor who has lectures and seminars about contemporary art, but actually speaks about life and empowers the creativity, self-esteem and consciousness of the students. And additionally, helps them create their own outstanding worlds and constantly challenges their way of thinking. But the strict system of university, the norms and rules are not my fit, so this is not an opportunity for me. This was the time when my coach said to me: have you ever thought about being a professional coach?
I was excited and my whole body started to fill up.
Everything started to make sense since. All the jobs I had in the past, everything that I did, my passions and my personality pointed into this direction. But I could hardly notice what was right in front of my eyes without help.
Leaving all behind wasn’t a fruitful idea as only one question could really help me in this process: who am I? And for the answer, I had to look back at the 6 year old me and the Dóri who experimented different jobs, positions and situations in the last decade.
I’m passionate about noticing what lies in front of other peoples’ eyes but they cannot really see it.
love, d.
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